"If you were to die today, where do you think you would be going, Heaven or Hell?"- Some months ago when I was asked this question, OF COURSE I was like "Are you okay, I'm going to HEAVEN, where the heck are you going??" BUT to be honest, I was actually scared because I DIDN'T really KNOW!!!!!!!!!! This question made me want to reexamine my life... Examine who or what I was living for- the MONEY, FAME, FASHION, POWER, to find a GOOD MAN, my FAMILY & FRIENDS… I wasn’t even living for myself; I was living for what this WORLD had conditioned me into believing that I needed to be HAPPY!!!!! But a couple of months ago, I chose to leave these worldly deceptions and instead live by the WORD.
I chose to believe that Christ Jesus died to save me, AND because he died to save me, I will live to honor and serve HIM!!!!!!!!!!
There a lot of things in my life that I have gone through spiritually, emotionally and physically that I have told no one, not even my family or my best friends. (Don’t ask me, PLEASE lol) And some of these things made me so ANGRY, HATEFUL, JEALOUS and DEPRESSED. It came to a point in my life that I was like GOD, WHY AM I HERE... but know one knew what I was going through because like a lot of people I know, I never wanted to show that I was weak and I never wanted people to see me cry!!!
When people used to see me, I would put a BIG BRIGHT FAKE SMILE on my face to cover my true feelings of pain!! I thought I needed therapy but I DIDN’T…And I thought no one really loved me but SOMEONE did….Now I don’t want wrap you all up any longer but I just want to let the world know that I love who I am now. My big bright smile is REAL now!!!!!!!!! And I know during this journey God will take me to even better places than where I am in my life right now…He is really my peace in the midst of a storm, and “my everlasting light.” I FEAR nothing with Him…
People say that I stare of into space a lot, but that is because I am always thinking. So I decided to make a blog about my thoughts during my journey to becoming the woman that God wants me to be.
Here are some random pictures from the last couple of months, of who I am NOW… I am truly blessed…PS I change my hair up A LOT lol
I chose to believe that Christ Jesus died to save me, AND because he died to save me, I will live to honor and serve HIM!!!!!!!!!!
There a lot of things in my life that I have gone through spiritually, emotionally and physically that I have told no one, not even my family or my best friends. (Don’t ask me, PLEASE lol) And some of these things made me so ANGRY, HATEFUL, JEALOUS and DEPRESSED. It came to a point in my life that I was like GOD, WHY AM I HERE... but know one knew what I was going through because like a lot of people I know, I never wanted to show that I was weak and I never wanted people to see me cry!!!
When people used to see me, I would put a BIG BRIGHT FAKE SMILE on my face to cover my true feelings of pain!! I thought I needed therapy but I DIDN’T…And I thought no one really loved me but SOMEONE did….Now I don’t want wrap you all up any longer but I just want to let the world know that I love who I am now. My big bright smile is REAL now!!!!!!!!! And I know during this journey God will take me to even better places than where I am in my life right now…He is really my peace in the midst of a storm, and “my everlasting light.” I FEAR nothing with Him…
People say that I stare of into space a lot, but that is because I am always thinking. So I decided to make a blog about my thoughts during my journey to becoming the woman that God wants me to be.
Here are some random pictures from the last couple of months, of who I am NOW… I am truly blessed…PS I change my hair up A LOT lol
8 comments:
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
"He DIED for us so we LIVE to serve Him" AMEN
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."
2 Corinthians 5:7 I'm so proud of you! and God loves you sooo much:)
(n I love you too!)
Nish: luvvzzzzz this Tej its beautifulllllllllllll xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo LOVE YA XOXOXOXOXOXO
@divasky LOL THANK YOU
@Anonymous Yes thats just what I read before I made this blog...and I love whoever you are too lol
@Nishe Thanks Nishe you know I had to put a pic of my bestie up
Love you soooo much more!!!!!!!!!!!
hey tejiri. reading this reminded my of the bible verse Philippians
4:13
"I can do all thing through God who strengthens me"
So even when times get hard just know that if you trust him, he will see you through.
WOW! I'm totally blown by your testimony my beloved sister. All I have to say is...GOD IS GOOD....BIG TIME!!! This was the exact person I was before I saw the light, too. Everyone around was always complimenting on my huge SMILE and how I light up the room with my warmth smile, but little did they know that I was slowly dying inside of me....until I had my encounter with Jehovah!
Praise God.
@Anonymous
Amen!!!
He truly is great!!!
When we surrender ourselves to Him He will truly deliver us from our captivites!!!! My friend, I'm glad you have had an encounter with Him, because I know He is proud of you and He is happy that His child has come back to him!!! Continue to seek and desire Him....Much Love
~fearless thought~
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